HAWTiE's way to enlightenment.

i don't know why.  but my-aidan is really rubbing me the wrong way for the last couple of days.   I don't know if this hormonal or i just really don't like him.

really.  i have nothing much to say.  i don't like to talk lately and just want some peace and quiet. 

maybe i'm just stressed out.  i have a crazy week and i have waking up really early the last two weeks.

oh well.



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btw,  this is tingting. hehehhe  such a poor little thing. 

it made me realiza a couple of things. 

One, i loved xiao more than i loved x-tart. 

two,  i feel nada about x-tart's whatever.

and three, it still hurts to read my blogs abt xiao. 

bummer.

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I have really nothing to write.  

I was just kinda not nice to madame C. 

well, she started it.

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Tomorrow is the start of "classes" at the school where i work.  I have a tight sched.  And the last time i checked.... i think, my work starts at 8.  schucks.

ohwell...  it's almost 1am.  I'm hitting the sheets.

I did.  And i'm just so glad it has already ended.

i don't want to talk about it anymore.

I just want to document that i hate:

YLRE

HELLO MOTTO

TRAFFIC

YLRE

really.  i do.

emotionally stressed today.

i'm so exhausted. 

So i changed my mind again.   I'm a woman.  IT IS MY RIGHT.  Heheehehehhe

If you're wondering what i'm talking about.  It's my-aidan.  I'm not sure  i'm really into him.  heehehe  I feel like i'm in an emotional rollercoaster...  i change the way i feel about him waaaaayyy  too often....  i'm getting nauseous.  hehehheheh

I have not been making sense in the last couple of days.  I can't write.  I'm an emotional baglady.  I'm sooo  OB-C.   And i'm too picky.

ewan.

How will i feel for  my-aidan tomorrow?  hmm....  your guess is as good as mine.

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I'm sooo anhedonic today. 

I'll just  try to blog tomorrow. 

yes.  I have no word for it.

So I am feeling kinda "bletch"  tonight.  It has been a stressful week.  So many things on my mind.  CRazy things.   About life and love. (HA!)

For one thing,  I know for sure that Xiao no longer exist.   I saw him last weekend and i'm happy i did.  Not because i wanted to see him....  but because i wanted to know if his effect is still the same.   The connection no longer exists.  It was uncomfortable when we were left alone for like a couple of minutes.  It was an awkward hi and how-are-you.  But i got that chance to ask about the wedding.   It was weird coz he said Jan...  and when i asked when in jan... he said 2008.  and then i clarified further.... day?  16th.  Oh well.  Good luck on the marriage.  (and yes!  i am sincere when i said that.)

The next thing is, i can't get an important document.   Everybody had gotten theirs  except me.  (or so i think.)  I don't know why this is happening.  But i'm still hoping for a positive result.    Harinawa.

Now.... i think i'm kinda falling for my-aidan.   I don't know why.  I don't know how deep.  I dont know if it's the real thing.  All i know for now is that  i no longer think all his actions are mushy.  Oh help.   I'm like a teenager.. confused about a first love.  (HA!)

I don't make sense tonight. 

Blah.

I'll just iron my hair.

Nity nyt.

oh gawd!

I went shopping again today.  And i vowed never to do that till i've cleared my back logs from last month.  To justify my purchases for today.... first, i wasn't feeling that well.  I think i'm kind of coming down with a flu.  Thus, i was feeling down the pits.  a tad depressed and all.  So i went to the mall with the pretense of buying catfood.  (i know i could have done it at the grocery but....!) 

so off i went to the crowded mall.  (it is the end of the month, after all.)

On the way to the grocery.....I passed by the cosmetics area... i remembered i have to go buy  liquid foundation.  So i did.  

Happy about the purchase but kinda feeling guilty bec i vowed not to shop. 

And then i had to pass the hair ironing section, i was lured by the demonstration....  "hi, miss.  this is our new product.  would you ike me to try it on you?" said the evil-saleslady. (heheheheheh)  I sat on the hypnotic chair and let her do magic on my hair.  I was mesmerized.  hehehehhe and so i succumb to the temptation.

By this time, i justified the purchase by saying, i really need a new ceramic hair straigtening/curling iron.       I DO!  I broke mine a couple of weeks ago and the other fxning one has 110V.  So i REALLY need one! (HA!)

So i headed to the grocery again clutching my liquid foundation and hair iron. 

Before i got there, i saw this amazing shop that sells kikay accessories.  I decided to browse the display.  BIG MISTAKE!  I ended up buying several items again!

To make the long story short, before i got to buy the cat food.  I spent 5k on worthless and totally unplanned items.  OMG!  Did i tell you that the cat food costs only 200 pesos?!  yes!  i should have not gone to the mall at all!

(note: the thing is this happens way toooo often!)

So.  I'm hawtie_leigh_d and i have been a shopaholic for gawd knows how long.

H.E.L.P!

John's mom succumb to Parkinson's today.    She has been battling the disease and its  complications for years now.  I was not able to meet her but John was open enough to share his thoughts about her.  I didn't know what to say to him except to look at things in a different light.  At least now, her mom is free from the disease that held her captive for years.   She may be gone physically but i do believe that all those who have passed are still amongst us.  Looking after us.  Like our private angels.  To Mrs. Norma Lumilan Uy, Thank you for giving us  a wonderful human being named john and may your soul rest in peace.

And so jordin won the American Idol title this year. No surprise there.  She has been lucky all the way.  Never been in the bottom 3.  Revered by the judges.  Beautiful.  And she's not a bad singer.  *sigh*  I still think Melinda Doolittle was robbed of the title but being a non-american, i guess, am not entitled to say (demand?!)  who the american's idol is suppose to be.  Simon Cowell also shared that sentiment, stating that melinda should have been in the finals.  (and he's a "non-american" too.  HA!  go figure.)

But i have to give credit where credit is due.  Jordin is indeed the better singer of the two finalist.  I would have still rooted for Blake because he's got the whole package going for him.  The looks, the style, the charisma, plus the not-so-bad-but-distinct voice quality.  They both did the best they could.  But there can only be one American Idol.


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CARRIE UNDERWOOD looked great.  Voice is still remarkably superb.  She is still as fresh as the first time i saw her.  I perceived no arrogance at all.   She is simply FABULOUS.

Now as for TAYLOR HICKS....  i feel bad that he didn't hit it as big as Chris Daughtry (4th placer Ai 2006).   I think his enthusiasm has mellowed down a bit.  When i last saw him, his presence and enthusiasm was so thick, it's almost tangible.   But now....  he still  sings good....   but.... ... tsk.... i don't know the word for it.   It's just different.  The aura is different.  Mr. soul patroller, please-oh-please  don't cha lose that edge that we love so much about you.

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I swore not to talk about politics tonight.  But really!!!!   If you can just hear the news....  you will have a tough time keeping your mouth shut, as well.   But i mean it when i promise not to talk about anything but american idol tonight.  And in a few minutes a rerun of the Ai finals will be aired ... and i plan to watch again.    HAAAAAYYYYY! 

i'll try to write something again tomorrow.

it is again a scorching day.

Halleluia to airconditioning... today...for me...  it is the greatest invention of all time.  heheheehehe

the weird thing is, inspite of the blistering heat... i chose to cook   "chicken sopas" and breaded porkchop.

I am in the mood for something hawt!  (hot +hot = cold?!)

i am not in my usual mood.

i think i sweated my brains out today. hehehehehehe


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i'm watching the news.  As usual... it's all about politics.  Why am i not surprised.  At least the GO candidates are leading the pack of wolves. (HA!) I guess, the dark horse is Antonio Trillanes IV (did i get his name right?!)  He didn't figure much in the pre-election surveys.  he wasn't even able to go out of his detention cell to campaign.  And yet he bested big-spenders like of Pichay and Mike defensor.  

Is this history repeating itself?!  I mean, Gringo Honasan was also a "rebel" with(out?!)  a cause more than a decade ago.... and he too was elected as a senator after the numerous coup d'etat he staged.  Now with trillanes....  he is the "leader" of the magdalo group who held a failed coup against the now president (?) GMA.  Inspite of the fact that many of his comrades in the group made peace with the present government, he remained steadfast and firm in his views.  He didn't retract the things he said and he still believes that GMA is not rightfully the Philippine's president.    And as of his latest statement, once he is an elected senator the first on his agenda is to impeach PGMA.    We'll just have to wait and see.

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Another controversial figure in the political arena is Fr. Panlilio of Pampanga.  He is running against two giants. (Pineda and Lapid)  The former the wife of allegedly  Pampanga's jueteng Lord.  And the latter, son of Lito Lapid (a movie hero who can kill two people with just a knife and a lone bullet in his gun. hehehehe) and  currently the incumbent governor of the said province.  As of press time (naks!), Panlilio is  winning.  (by a very slim margin) followed by Baby Pineda and the not-gonna-be-governor-this-time Mark Lapid .   We will know for sure tomorrow.  I'll keep you posted.

(note:  news update....  Fr. Ed Pineda won the race by only 1,000+.   Wow.  That's what i call "divine intervention".)

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Now, Last but definitely not the least, Manny Pacquiao.  Man, give me a break.  YOU ARE A BOXER  not.... i repeat... NOT  a politician.  Don't  let yourself be used by all these people who gave you false promises.    What will you do with a congressional seat except vote to not impeach GMA?!   If you really want  to "help" like what you said...  you don't have to be in politics....   you are doing well as a private citizen.  Just keep on doing your charitable works and people will love you more.  And one more thing, you said that once elected, funds for the development of Gen. San will come pouring in bec you are close to PGMA.   Well, u can now make yourself useful and tell her to release the funds to Rep. Custodio instead.  Darlene Antonino-Custodio won fair and square and we all know it.  You only got appx 50% of her votes.  Be the man that we all know  you are and admit defeat.  We will admire you more.  Goodluck on your boxing career.   Oh btw....  i don't think there will be victory motorcades in manila when you arrive home from a winning fight.  Your Godfather's son, incidentally, didn't make it, as well.  Tsk. tsk. tsk.

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CIBAC is consistenty in the top 5 of the  partylist race.   Rep. Joel Villanueva....  i look forward to seeing you fight graft and corruption for the next three years.

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I say goodbye for now. 

Enough of this political hoola-baloos for tonight. 

It's giving me a migraine.

BYE.   

BEFORE:




AFTER:



all this transformation done in a year.  He is a new person.  He is hawt!!!  Look what money can do.  the veneers look good. and the josh groban-ish hair  fits him really well.  And to top it.... the guy can sing!  woo-hoo!!!!

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way too many things happened to me today.  Shocking things at that.  I don't think my heart can withstand to take more.  hehehehehehehe

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i'll be buying your CD elliot Yamin.   YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!